I need it through an explosion
I need it through emotion
THIS WON’T BE another post on how I need to find my heart again, but the need for explosions of expression are still in my body.
Even now I want to dance, and throw myself around – I want to play hockey in wet mud in the rain, and scream in a hall in the middle of a performance
I THINK my main goal is performing now .
Look at that photo of Hanyu, and tell me that doesn’t look like he’s been born to skate.
I miss performing from musical evenings, and in competitions, and I would like to do that again – maybe not in music, but maybe I should make my whole life a performance.
I know my teachers all think i’m crazy now, they think i’m haphazard and I’m disorganised
but the truth is i’m doing it on purpose
to create an explosion !